Guilt

No one said this training would be easy. I can live with that. It's the guilt I can't get over. *sigh*

I didn't get to train properly yesterday because my daughter wanted to walk with me. She is just 5 so needless to say, she can't walk/run for the length of time I have to train. We did get out and walked around the neighborhood for 20 min. She just didn't want me to leave her.

I feel guilty because I have to leave them when I could be spending time with them. I guess I'll have to get out in the morning, before 5 AM in order to get the training in. The fact Braden doesn't sleep thru the night yet isn't helping my morning routine either. I think he may be afraid of the dark, so we are going to try a nightlight and see if it helps any.

So getting out of bed is a struggle in the morning, after I'm up at least twice with him. Sometimes I think maybe I should have waited until they got older. But will it ever get easier? The older they get, the more time they'll need. There will be homeworks to check, sports, etc.

I may just go to the track today and take Candace with me. She likes to run around the track for a while, and then sits there and watches me. At least she'll get to watch me.

sorry for the pity party here. Just one of those days.