Sunday, March 18

Voices in my head

Remember those commercials where the woman is trying to decide if she wants a chocolate chip cookie and there is a little angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other, both arguing their cases?

That's what happens inside my head on Saturday mornings. I get out to the levee, excited, ready to go. Then I start walking, and it goes like this:
EVIL: you have got to be crazy to be doing this. ok, you are not even a runner! at this pace, you'll be walking for days in Chicago before you finish.
GOOD: Pay no attention. You are on your way. Just think about it, you got out of bed this morning, and instead of sitting on the couch, eating Fruit Loops, you had oatmeal, water, and came out here to train. You are a marathoner in training!
EVIL: blah, blah, blah. Do you really want to be in pain like this? Look around you! Everyone is faster than you, and you can't even jog!!! Go ahead and quit now.

and so it goes, until I finish the required distance. Is anyone else hearing voices? or should I put the number for the psychiatric ward in my speed dial? LOL

I met Vickie, Kelvin, and Phil, slowly meeting more people, which is great. I wish I could have waited for you Christa, but I had made plans for the zoo and had to get home and get everyone ready.

The zoo was full of people, I guess the great weather inspired everyone. My niece Stephanie and her boyfriend came with us, and thank God bc they were a lot of help with the kids. The boys were good, they LOVE being outside, so I'm sure we are going to spending lots of times outdoors with these 2.

Haven't XT yet today. Braden is teething, and not happy, so I was awake quite a bit last night. My husband let me sleep until 10, and then it was time to get up and get ready to go to his mother's for lunch. When we got home, everyone (including me) took a nap. So when the boys go to bed, I'll get my XT.

Doing better on the eating dept too. I was NOT good while in Orlando and it shows. But I'm back on track and I can tell the difference. I feel much more energized when I eat right.

We are trying to decide what we are doing regarding Chicago. I wanted my husband and daughter to go, but that means someone has to keep the twins. My mom is out of the country, and I'm not sure if she'll be back by then.

So Claude said I should go. I'm not sure if my sisters are going (originally they said they were). Better get on the phone and get an idea. Otherwise, I think I'll be going with the quadruple choice, so I'll be searching for roommates.

5 comments:

SIATHAMES said...

I have the same thoughts. I OFTEN wonder what the heck I'm doing. I started out walking the FIRST mile in excruciating pain. I was sooo ready to give up. Now, everytime I finish a Saturday, I am inspired, and empowered. I have no idea how I'm going to finish this Marathon. But I have about 30 weeks, and I'm going to hang in there. YOU HANG IN THERE TOO! We are Marathoners!

Mark Simpson said...

I still have those voices after three marathons! Good news on speed - the longer you train the faster you get. There is plenty of time for speed!

Christa said...

Kayra, I thought you were CRUISING on Saturday!!! You weren't slow at all! It's all relative I guess. No problem about Saturday. I got delayed in the bathroom line then had to park far away. I have those thoughts too, especially when I think about the long runs to come. I went to Wal-Mart Saturday after the run, then went home and unloaded groceries, then took a shower and when I sat down finally I realized that in a few months, I'd STILL be "running" at that time. It's overwhelming!!!! But my body and energy level are in such better shape now than before I started all this craziness. Plus I know I'll beat myself up if I quit. (I have a tendency to do that.) So, I'm in it for the long haul. You can do this! I keep wanting to tell you how absolutely adorable you are and that you have the cutest figure! I look much more like the mother of young twins than you do! Keep your chin up, you are a marathoner. I hope you have a great week and I'll see you on Saturday. Christa

Robin said...

The voices are definitely normal, or maybe I'm crazy too! Just keep going against those voices because they are lying to you. You can SO do this, I promise and you will feel like superwoman when you do!

Kim said...

Ditto on the ignore the voices. We all get them.